Changes

The Lord has really been speaking to Jake and I recently. Lots of changes need to be made, and we need to start now.

Life can be rough sometimes, there's no denying it. It is how we handle the rough times that makes all the difference. I am human. I am a sinner. More often than not I do NOT rely on God to get me through hard times. How stupid I am! God has made it so clear to me that He is the only way to happiness. I can have a place to live, animals to love, a husband to adore, and still be unhappy and unsatisfied. God HAS to be in the center of it.

Jake and I do not have a lot of money. We have enough to pay our bills and make rent, and to buy a few groceries every weekend, and that's about it. It is hard for someone like me who previously never had responsibilities but had a good paying job, to learn how to stretch the money and pay the bills on time and make sure there is still food to feed the husband when he gets home! But I can not do it on my own. The Lord asks that we offer Him our money, ask Him to be in control of it. That is the only way our money will ever truly be in safe hands. But my logical, reasonable self (hey! It's known to show itself once in a while!) says "But how can we give God money when we do not have any for ourselves?" Trust. Faith. It's HARD. But God rewards those who trust in Him.

Just this past weekend Jake and I were needing two stamps for two bills we had to pay. All the post offices were closed and stores only sold books of stamps, which we can't afford. We went into another store and asked the cashier if she stold stamps. "Yes," she said "but only in books." A lady was in line next to us and asked "How many do you need?" We said two, but we didn't have any cash. The lady smiled at us and ripped off two stamps from her newly bought stamp book.

The Lord is good. Jake and I have a long way to go with our lives. We have a lot of learning and a lot of growing up to do. But if God is for us, who can be against us?